DIARY OF A MOMMY WITH 5

[cosmic flow]

I don't believe in 2nd chances let alone going back to ex's .. even for sex ... that's just messy and tired of even knowing what that means .. smh .. I didn't ask to change at first ... I begged for him to change and now I can't seem to quit asking to keep self changing and changing where I am to the point now I feel like I'm waking up from a nightmare and feel nothing for any of my star seeds donors to even stomach my lips pressing against any of theirs. I don't like swapping any saliva / dna with just any fucking body and my mind did a straight 720` degrees on my own ass. I look back at pity on that part of me that has died off poor lost little chile ... just looking to love some one and be loved by any one capable of feeling instead of just doing it her damn self. I some how was crippled by love. My own sun is crippled ... ijs ... all I do is self analyze we got enuff hypocrites tired of being an aware one! Tired of a lot of redundent bull shit! I feel like a huge magnet all my life just attracting all sorts of shit unaware and aware but mostly unaware ,, smh @ self .... KNOWLEDGE IS PURITY