I'm a killa in these streets I'd be a damn victim if I didn't get accustomed by not listening to every bodies problem ... not accustomed to selling bull shit ,, the clever way ? yeak okay! every one snatching em phd's ,, em lying degrees .. pedegrees .. stay in 3rd degrees ... think I'm lying ,, hit these trees .. and seek what u see ... bottom feeders or bumble bee ? could it be ? truth i speak out from me ? people be playing with these words i be sayin .. cause of my gender that's seen all…

Even the damn taxi drivers have lost they got damn minds! So damn rude and my ass stays clownin no matter who it is you talk krazy to me I'm staying krazy at you ,,, LOL!! That's just the way that shit goes with lydia michelle I'm finally starting to love the way my name sounds ... so grateful I am at peace with self or I'd stay acting a donkey in these streets of cold hearted bull shit just drama for every bodies mama!

I don't believe in 2nd chances let alone going back to ex's .. even for sex ... that's just messy and tired of even knowing what that means .. smh .. I didn't ask to change at first ... I begged for him to change and now I can't seem to quit asking to keep self changing and changing where I am to the point now I feel like I'm waking up from a nightmare and feel nothing for any of my star seeds donors to even stomach my lips pressing against any of theirs. I don't like swapping any saliva /…

What has happen to dating and getting to know each other ???? I have been on 2 dates in the past 10 months and both men were eager to fuck on the first date . One whom bought dinner and another who did not. So I am now convinced rather a man feeds me or not he expects some pussy from me . Both times I have been disappointed with a full and empty stomach. AMAZING!

U R AMAZING AND U R ENUFF

In 2013 black dudes are defending white women to the fullest . A brutha will stomp my mexican ass out over some crakkka better believe it . I see many black men who look down at my children like they ain't shit while he has a pank female in his zone. My star seeds notice this as well and often ask me what's wrong with dude ? I simple tell mines that he sees him self in you children and he hates every thing black about him self so he hates you as well . My star seeds only inner stand logic…

This Spiritual Warfare is no damn joke. The shit I have been exposed to and seen one could not handle it because I some times feel fucked over like could I be tripping ? Am I going krazy ???? Then I get reminded and my nerves calm back down. When your chosen to see in the spiritual realm it ain't no damn walk in the park or a field of damn lillies better believe shit will make you feel very uncomfortable and question every fucking thing especially people and how they live they lives. COMMON…

FUCK DA EGO .. I swear I no longer want to think I have to be the best in anything I do outwardly if I am not being the best towards me and for me only! Once that is in total control that light within you can't help but to leak out of you because eventually water does burst out of rocks!

NARCISSISTS ... Is what I have been noticing that is all around me once I actually inner stood that true meaning . I had relationships/friendships with people like this . So unhealthy to my aura just draining the good in me for all I am worth and that's a damn lot! I had to let go of 3 damn females whom I have knows some for 7 yrs , 12, yrs and 23 yrs ,, this shit bothered me only if I think in a low vibrating matter and I don't vibrate low for nothing anymore . Letting go of dead inner…

Learning to keep starting over no matter what does not grow after birthing it . Lately I been finding self starting over with a lot of stuff from ideas to schedules to people I am plugging into . The more I allow my soul to grow the more I can take in to learn to navigate my self in the jungle that is named planet earth . When your comfortable with SELF not with others opinions and praises of you but to know when your own self praise with the ultimate acceptance and gratification towards…

I honestly dislike sharing my dreams with anyone . I am always looked at krazy with no support . No this isn't self pity party for Lydia been there done that. I am just realizing what type of team I have always accumulated and it's sucked big time . I was becoming my company either fighting against them or joining em and end wits will just to save face . I've been disappointed in self enough times to stand so firm in any decisions I birth . Self worth is a must to survive in this jungle we…

Had to end a 7 yr friendship with this one female last week . A lot of people will come into our lives even cling on just to steal our identity and thoughts and tweek it up with they name on it . That is not healthy for me to have a friend or lover like that around me . I swear I am opening up to so much truth and I am actually doing something about a lot of bull shit and that's why change does hurt . NO PAIN NO GAIN EYE FINALLY INNER STAND 

A lot of mind control going on . Was speaking to a home girl of mines this early wednesday morning and she is starting to see how people are loosing they damn minds. She don't full inner stand it yet but at least she is seeing things that is disturbing her christian ass .. and I meant that with love . 

Feeling good on the inside . No longer focused outwardly for nothing all that matters is what is residing within me . Life is looking so beautiful now . My mental is shifting no longer focused on what society defines as relationships between a man and a woman . Finally inner standing and with this 720` degree shift that has resurrected within I am finally on the path that I belong on . No longer attaching self to anyone or anything . No longer hindering my soul to be responsible for nobodies…

As axles and degrees shift .. more stuff is being revealed to me . Was busy wasting inner g on a lot of personal lifestyle . The internet is a gate way to a soul sucking man invested power drainer . I literally felt face prowl sucking off my inner man , my intuition . People call me krazy but they soul is lazy . Well mine is very much awake as I go through more trials and tribulations while I watch the spiritual warfare manifest which I can no longer digest . I literally had to pull out of…

Another sunny day in California . Interesting how I can have peace and tranquility ... but soon as I log onto face prowl ,, I can just feel the neg inner g coming from different / groups . What I am plugging into is no longer serving me and I can feel it more and more. I have never been a real big internet fan like I have been on face prowl and it's amazing how people don't fight with they words they use links and self made links and pictures ... LOL! Their are a lot of miserable people in…

I am very interested in opening a forum specifically for home schooling that will offer a place where other parents whom home school or interested to learn more. I know this will come in handy . Also a place to exchange idea or stories or concerns . 

Whom ever reads this ,, I thank you ... Peace and Prosperity always. I have been doing a lot of soul searching and inner g cleansing. Just detoxing a lot of stuff from my mind and feeling great with the progress I am seeing and applying to my life. I am finally at peace when it comes to my 4 children . Have all of them pulled out the district schools and am now home schooling mines . I feel great .. I feel complete again . Doors are just opening for me with the home school I am working with…

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This morning I woke up with work on my mind . A great morning I am having . I walked up the street to put gas in my canister for my lawn mower and grabbed me a cup of coffee while I was at it . I love walking . I also bought me some Finches yesterday . I just was in the mood to bring home some life . I named him and her Sun & Moon . They seem to be adjusting well and I know they can feel my inner g by the way they look and chirp at me ... LOL! Life is as good as were willing to fight for…