Well this morning started off sleepy as heck . However I did manage to get my ass up and get my children ready for their day . took my child with me to the appointment that I was scheduled to have with the principal and was told I was over an hour early . I know I wasn't tripping so in stead I just returned all my child books and I pulled her out from that school . I'm also going to be studying and taking work shops on line over the summer to become a Certified Parent Educator and start…

Never open up pandoras  box .,. damn !

Was on brain electricity over load . A lot just going on to do with my 12 yr old daughter . The junior high school she attends is really affecting her in a negative way . Her grades are bad and she is not happy at all . Im have been keeping her home . Have another school meeting with the principal this time next monday .I can't wait to home school just waiting on someone to contact me since my paper work has already been processed . Trying to maintain my emotions and stay focused . 

Refuge is what we need ladies . We have taught men how to be disrespectful towards women . We have . By getting upset at our men when they look at women or hold a door for one and you as well . We get a little jealous fast . By showing these emotions we are teaching men don't do that . Don't praise women or uplift them . We have shown men to be rude to women to show us respect . All we have shown is if man disrespects woman he gets awarded by…

This one going to be real deep as you think you entering like a submarine but we going deeper than that. My mind just started thinking am I ready for a man in my life ? Can I share him ? Can I allow him to uplift other women ? And my answer was no . My mind isn't ready for that or my proper over standing because I inner stand why I am not ready now for a man or why my own relationships didn't work out regardless if I was the one who ended every one of them ... wow ! Deep thoughts run deep…

Why do I feel like time is wrong today ? For example . I just had this thought that 1 am actually begins when evening is done like maybe 5 or 6 am is when 1 am begins which is morning . So it's 11:21 am and it could be 5 or 6:21 am in the morning .. My mind just spinning out rite now . Feels like a deep morning to me and I feel ,it like deep green moss . It feels so healthy like chlorophyll . Amazing . 

Birds are chirping this morning ... I love it . Was told by another woman that the birds help germinate the seeds in the trees . I like that . And this morning the birds are also germinating my seeds that were planted in me  as well . So in tune with nature it's a blessing to be aware . I am being built up by nature and her little helpers I can feel it .. I can feel the inner g swarming inside my DNA so beautiful . I never knew . Never read about this . No one ever mentions this . why…

KNOWLEDGE BUILDS HER WHILE WISDOM GUARDS HER FOR SHE IS THEIR CHILD ♥

Dear Womb I am writing you this letter to let you know that I have grown to honor and protect you because I love you know . I want to sincerely deeply apologize for the abuse and stress I have endured over the years . I was polluting you not realizing I was discarding my life support . I was self destructing . Not realizing I was in need of a spiritual cleansing . I love you so much mz uterus . I love you greatly mama womb who is my mother ship. I weep at nights because I was nearly dead .…

Woke up with messages on my mind not to trust so freely and deeply as i always do . Also was told to be careful with my people in my circle which is few . Some times we have to let go of it all and just stand alone . I've been slowing up a lot of things in my life these past 4yrs ... 2009 was a big transition that I am still detoxing from . Just happy I am no longer sleeping with the enemy.

I swear these past few weeks I have been feeling like I am at a beach house with my family . It feels weird because it feels so real . I can feel white sand all around me . And this breeze is messing with my mind it feels so tropical . I swear I feel sand on my skin . I feel so at peace like serenity . I am grateful . Took me a lot to get here with joy in my heart . 

Woke up feeling so at peace as I was waking up . It felt so different . I don't remember feeling this way before. I was calm as I was opening my eyes . Love it  And I am aware that today is Smith day ,, damn! this why I am staying home and cleaning out my garage . I am converting that into my sewing room slash mini gym . Seems like all week I was going to sleep with eyes wide open . Grateful ,.

Woke up this morning feeling some type of way ,, then again maybe it was because of face book . But so much inner g is put in to that site and I get non reactive inner g forces back . I plug into an outlet that is just draining me . Starting to remind me of my children's dad who was just feeding off my inner g and way of life . I was plugged into a socket with no inner g in it , no life . I am starting to feel that way about face prowl now . This keeps me reminded on be aware who I am…

Was thinking just now .. was I ever a home wrecker ? I would have to say yes . Met a couple of men who had girl frenz who I allowed 2 take me out on a couple of dates . Even chased one away from her own baby's father . Am I proud of any of this .. of course not but I am self reflecting and realizing the consequences that were behind all that . Could I do that again ? No . But when I do meet dudes who have women I feel bad so I end up ignoring them now . Learned to respect self by respecting…

DON'T ALLOW NO ONE 2 TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOUR KINDNESS/HAPPINESS /OR HEART ... STAY IN CHARGE OF YA OWN OFFERINGS ... GIVE KIND WORDS WHEN UR LED 2 NOT WHEN SOMEONE WANTS THEM ... ETC .. ETC .. NEVER RUN YA OWN WELL DRY ♥

Amazing when one begins to truly change. You begin to taste food differently . You start to dress different. You begin to spend money different to . My taste in men has even begun to change . What makes me happy now makes me sad and what use to make me sad brings me the deepest joys now . What use to make me angry is more controlled now within . I even have a different taste in friends now as well . I have become some what of a loner but I love it . No drama . No other people's drama . I am…

Today I am going to start teaching self how to sew. My first project is to sew my sewing machine a cover . Simple and a realistic goal to reach . I am excited over here . 

how can u say u love me when u don't even love ya self

save ur petty hugs for these good byez ya slug

you'z a leeche trying 2 compete

with a queen who u obviously hasn't seen 

what's beneath my skin when i allowed u in

ungrateful being never unseen 

u travel on ya belly ur tongue is split like yo mind 

and yo ass just ran outta time 

not dissin 

just expressin my lessin 

When was the last time U held self when crying ? Self cleansing can be real deep if you allow it .

 Tonight my mind feels like running deeper than a submarine in an ocean . Ever since I was a child I loved to count anything and every thing . Now that I am in my late 30's I see numbers more and more different now . Like for the numbers 666 people say it is the devil but I see good in it now . 6x3=18 and 1+8=9 which is ether 9 femiNINE ... so how could this belong to some who is wicked? I am into numerology a little bit . My number is 5 and when I started to think about it that fits me. My…